My Baby and Me

I shy away from the camera. I am not comfortable in front of the camera. Part of the reason is being self conscious and the other part it not being control. I know how to make nice images, I like being able to adjust the pose and positions. Being in front of the camera I have to relinquish some of that control and I need to let go of those self conscious thoughts. More importantly I feel a deep need to be in front of the camera. My children are growing too fast, like all children. I also need to face that there will be a day I will not longer be here (I personally hope not for many, many decades to come!) and that there are few pictures that include me.

This afternoon, I set up the camera, grabbed Cecilia and Peter, my (almost) 9 year old, was in control of the shutter button.

My kids don’t see how many pounds I am overweight, they don’t know or care that it was a bad hair day. They only see ME. Mommy. Mom.

 

My goal is to make sure I am in more pictures with my children, to make more of an effort. It isn’t about me, it is all about them.